Why is it so hard to say you need help? Well your ego is high or your embarrassed about what's wrong. No matter what the answer you will feel better if you ask for help. You don't have to announse it to the world on what your getting help with. Honestly nobody has to know your problems besides you and whomever you chose to tell. Chose someone that you trust and I'm sure that they won't tell everyone what's going on. Now yes it's going to be hard to admit that you need help but once you do you'll feel alot better. Once you tell someone what's going on I'm sure that they will so what they can to help.